I was riding my bike around downtown yesterday during the superbowl,it was a great day to get out. As I was riding, I swung by the capitol because of all the different trees they have in the park that surrounds the building.
I was walking through and saw two different ladies seated in the park writing. When I passed I remembered my grandma on my mom's side. Italian from Jersey. For some reason, I felt compelled to smell the trees, almost as if I had to show off a little to these women. The funniest thing happened, I couldn't smell the first tree, so in a panic, as I continued my walk by because we are not allowed to ride bikes in this park, I stopped to smell the next tree. It was a different tree but the same species. It had a differnt color bloom and I was able to smell the bud this time. It was very sweet, almost old too. It reminded me of the smell of my grandmother.
It was at that point that I realized that my grandmother was the one that helped me enjoy this day. If it was not for our mid afternoon walks that we took when I was younger, I don't think I would know what I was doing in this park. I mean, I have this nice Gary Fisher mountian bike that I can ride anywhere, it is not a road bike; and, I ride it anywhere I can. I could be seated at a coffee house or anywhere where girls roam showing off my bike, but I don't.
There is this celestial feeling of doing the greater cause. In a case where you are alone, you do things closest to you. In my case, I feel closest to nature, when I am alone. And, I was lead to the park on my own will, but thank you to my grandma, I was able to thank her and respect her a little bit more.
Will this build my spiritual realtionship with her, or help me feel closer to God, I do not know. Time will tell. I already feel like I had a great relationship with my deceased grandmother, and I feel like I am a part of God everyday, so then what is the real answers here?
I feel, now, maybe if it was not for my grandmother, I would not see the constant positivity in nature, I certainly know who I learned hwo to use nature for my health benefits from; but consistency? Grandma's everyday nature walks to see horses! fruits! and experience!
Second, I get to talk about it now. Any experience on the computer where you can type and speak is exceptional. Why? Today, we are closer to misunderstanding these things. I feel there is a relationship between perfection and words and imperfection and words. There almost seems to be this spiritual connection with trying to be on the good side. Flow is different. Flow is everyday. So, the more comforatble I am with flow, the happier I will be.
Thank you grandma for giving my a reason to speak today, Lord, thank you for grandma and myself, and thank you for being!
